I am so sick and tired of constantly going through this shit! I'm a very tolerant and strong willed person...but when is enough finally enough. I can't keep sticking my hand out the car window only to have a semi take it straight off! Everything I do is for a REASON but lately I haven't been able to find the reason for this...sometimes I feel as if everything is in slow motion and all I can do is watch as everything moves so slow that its almost at a stand still. I'm in this battle with myself about what should be my next move...its like I'm playing a game of chess and I've lost all my pawns and I'm going back and forth with my Knight, Queen, Bishop, Rook and King...which are the most important pieces in the game cause you need them to protect the King. So the King keeps showing bravery by moving one space forward and then it moves one space backwards because it was to far from its comfort zone...mean while the Queen is working as hard as it can to keep from losing..it has the Bishop Rook and Knight but they can only do so much...all the sudden there goes the Knight taken out by the enemy...Now its up to the Queen Rook and Bishop to work together and keep from losing everything..the Queen stands by the King to let the Rook and Bishop handle the game as best as they could but they've always been knocked out of the box...Now its the King and Queen...and thats when you have to come to realize that you can either stick by your King and try and dominate the game or admit DEFEAT and give up... and that's where I'm stuck...cause I'm not sure if it's my time to just let my King lay down or fight till the end.......
