A Heart of the Lonely

My heart is what you asked for.
but how can I give you something that I don't have?
I remember having one a long time ago, but you know how that story goes.
I really wanted you to be the one to have it and hold it as if it were yours
but its been gone for so long that I don't even remember what it feels like anymore.
I can try and give you as much as I can
but where will this all go
I know I sound clustered and my words seem out of place...but
finding my heart is like being in a race without a pace.

Well now your gone
and its all my fault.
All I can really say is I'm sorry
that I fell apart.

Its a whole year later
and I'm glad we still keep in touch
but I wanted to tell you something
I found my heart!
just this past month
and you'll never believe how
I was going through an old shoe box
and stumbled across a few old letters
and read them to myself
got to the end and realized
they were from YOU!
You see it wasn't that I didn't have a heart
I just couldn't see you for you
and reading those letters made me realize
that it was you
My heart is you!
I know your happy with someone new
but you just needed to know
that I've finally grown as a person
and did what I had to
So now that you know and I know

I can move on too!

Thank you for loving me
and remaining true.
Thank you for making realize that this
lonely heart can love too!